I have mentioned, in a previous post, the pulsating point as a fitting image for spiritual transformation (The image comes via Fr. Seraphim of The Monastery of All Celtic Saints). The maturing of our faith is an example of the ongoing struggle – pulsating point – within our soul. Perhaps we witness the difference between faithless doubt and faithful doubt in the response of Zachariah and Mary to the angel Gabriel’s visitation. In essence, we journey with our face set toward the Heavenly Jerusalem – deification – working out our salvation with fear and trembling. We acknowledge our doubt not for the purpose of staying where we are but for the purpose of journeying further with God.
They brought the boy to Him. When he saw Him, immediately the spirit threw him into a convulsion, and falling to the ground, he began rolling around and foaming at the mouth. And He asked his father, “How long has this been happening to him?” And he said, “From childhood. “It has often thrown him both into the fire and into the water to destroy him. But if You can do anything, take pity on us and help us!” And Jesus said to him, “ ‘If You can?’ All things are possible to him who believes.” Immediately the boy’s father cried out and said, “I do believe; help my unbelief.” (Mark 6.20-24)
“True faith is a constant dialogue with doubt, for God is incomparably greater than all our preconceptions about Him; our mental concepts are idols that need to be shattered. So as to be fully alive, our faith needs continually to die.” from “The Inner Kingdom: Volume 1 of the Collected Works,” by Metropolitan Kallistos Ware